Waiting to be called for surgery |
8:30 am – The OR just called and Dr. H.has the pins in both feet and feels really good about them. Today started really early, in fact, earlier than it needed to. I just couldn’t sleep because I was afraid I’d oversleep. Even set two alarms, one for 4 a.m. and one for 4:10 a.m., and then got up before they went off. We left the house just a few minutes after 5:00 and got her about 6:00. They took Aaron back at 7:45.
As I was waiting for the stroller to come back, another couple brought their little girl down. The way it works is you walk down the hall with your child and a nurse or doctor, or whoever is taking them back. Then you come to some striped tape on the floor and just beyond is a set of double doors. That’s where you say goodbye and hand over your baby. At that door, it’s always your baby, no matter how old or big they really are. I’m afraid I’ve gotten used to it now, or I’m just stuffing it all down, because it’s not as emotional anymore. Don’t get me wrong. I still worry. A lot! But the first two times they took him, it was all I could do not to run after them. Now, it’s not quite as hard. Anyway, I saw it all again, so vividly, as they handed over their little girl. Mom was crying quietly and Dad looked worried, about both his baby and his wife. The patient was having fun playing until it was time to leave Mom. Then she wasn’t so sure either. At least Aaron’s still very willing to go with someone else. I think it would be close to unbearable to have to let him go knowing he was upset.
Close up of one of his casts - pre-op |
I know what you mean about them taking the baby away. Brian had his first surgery at 11 months and the next a month later. I never got used to that sensation of powerlessness each time they took him. Even with his last surgery at age 18! I was much calmer, but it felt similar to the one at 11 months. I guess we never stop being a mom.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to hear the surgery went well. Time to decorate the new casts! Hoping for a quick recovery!
ReplyDeleteJenny (Julia's mom)