I'm afraid we're going to have to postpone his party for now. Not sure when it will happen, but I only got 3 hours of sleep last night and he needs to rest, too. Not much wanting to repeat our experience here. I don't scare real easily anymore, but last night, yeah, I was not happy.
I keep seeing that still, blue-gray face, watching those accessory muscles work hard to try, try to draw in breath. Hearing me tell him that he just wasn't getting this. I was forcing air into his lungs with 100% oxygen. That meant he was supposed to improve his oxygen sats, not drop them further.
Anyway, if you could release a balloon for him, for all his little angel friends to play with, and take a picture, I would so appreciate it. I think we're going to be celebrating his birthday quietly at home, grateful that he's still with us to celebrate.
Gratitude is the memory of the heart. ~Jean Baptiste Massieu
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