In English: there was a hole between his artery and vein in his right groin area. Not a great thing. When the surgeon got in there, he said it was the size of a pencil eraser. On a kiddo Aaron's size, that's huge! But no more! So all that lovely oxygenated blood that was pulling a U-turn and going back to the heart instead of delivering precious oxygen to the cells in his leg has now been put on notice. The U-turn has been removed.
Already his right foot is much warmer than I remember it being. And we're hoping that it improves his heart health, or at least slows the progression of his heart disease. Poor muscle was totally being overworked. It still is, just hopefully not as much.
We were hoping to go home today. We actually thought we would. And the "we" is apparently the doctors and I. When I told William it wouldn't be happening, he laughed and said, "I never thought you'd be home today." Oh well...
But this kid is a champ. He's rocking out, playing, watching TV. But that darn asthma has decided it wants to play, too. He spent most of the night on ten liters. That wouldn't be too far off except that since we switched ventilators he usually needs two to four liters. Sigh...
Gotta love this kid's games.
In other news, the new Primary Children's campus in Lehi is really coming along! Some of us got to take a tour of it on Thursday and it was AMAZING!! There is a complete behavioral health unit, which means that among other things, when a child needs both medical and behavioral health care, it can happen there. Right now, inpatient behavioral health does not have the option of supporting medical complexity, too. It will be quite a bit smaller than the original campus, about a third of the size but it will have a PICU, a NICU, regular floor, ORs, emergency department, and observational rooms. Plus there's a full wing with clinical offices as well.
Going through and actually seeing what we spent so much time working to design was thrilling! Still a ways out from opening, it will be a great blessing to so many children and families.
School for me is going well, but man, it's HARD!! Everyone says the third semester is the hardest and I believe them. There is just so much to digest and figure out. There's a lot of self-introspection and work between my ears going on. Plus we're getting ready for our capstone projects and that's got me totally stressed. But that's okay. I'm also learning to set boundaries, including on my own thought processes and to take care of myself.
But I'm learning. It's deciding that good enough is just that: good enough. It's lighting a candle while studying and listening to calming music. It's deciding that it's okay to not do some things, and it's also okay to say I can't deal with mess and clutter and get it cleaned up instead of doing something else. Self-care is acknowledging that my own mental, physical, emotional and spiritual health is important and I need to be the one to care for it.
Sometimes (although perhaps not for a while now, it's cold) it's sitting outside in the sun and just listening to the breeze and neighbor kids playing.
Sometimes it's writing.
I've written therapy-type posts before. Not therapy for others, posts that get the thoughts and whatever out of my own brain. Therapy for me. Maybe there will be more of those. I need to schedule time for this, for me. I think everyone in my life will benefit, but again, this is mostly for me. And that's okay.