|He was in high spirits when we got here.|
They got Aaron in on a last case surgery for today. It should be easy peasy. It should be no big deal. I should be able to handle this. After all, I've certainly done it enough.
Yeah, and maybe that's the problem. I've done it enough. Oh, there are no more surprises in the pre-op area or waiting room. I know the drill, I know the rooms, the people, the set-up. I know that they're going to take him away, and I'll wait and wait. And time becomes really fluid. If I can focus on something else, it speeds up. And then I watch the clock and it crawls almost to a stop.
|If I can't see you, you can't see me.|
Like his shirt? #Wasn'tMe
|So tired, thought he'd take a nap before|
surgery. Silly kid, he's going to get to
sleep even more.
Most of the time, honest, this trach life is no big deal. Really, we don't even really think about it. Even when there's a plug, we deal with it and go on. But this week, well, this week trach life has been really rough, at least in the space between my ears.
|And he's off.|
I've come to realize that there are things I couldn't imagine ever doing, that I know I WOULD do if I had to. I'll spare you the details, but if the trach came out, I would get one back in, no question, regardless of what had to happen. He would have an airway. He's my son, and I would do it. Not being sure that someone else would meant that I couldn't leave him, or let him leave, with a nurse.
But now that he's in, the trach, the airway, will be just fine. We'll have a secure airway again. Now it's his heart. Can his heart handle this? I'm actually fairly confident that it will, eventually. But will that awful pulmonary hypertension rear its ugly head? Will we end up with an extended stay? It's been a long time since we've been allowed to go home the same day of a surgery because of that ugly beast, but today we're hoping.
|Yesterday with his brother at the Museum of Art.|
The tech just came out to get his wheelchair with vent. It looks like they're done, although he's not awake yet. I'll be heading back to see him soon. That really was fast, which hopefully is a good sign. Less time than they expected, 40 minutes instead of an hour. A couple years ago it was an hour 20 instead of 15 minutes. I think I like this one better